Lady pains af.

I feel sleepy. I have cramps. I’m in a 3-day 9-5 class. Let me give myself space to honor the universe doing this for me, not to me.

Sounds a little woo, I know, but it’s true. I woke up in a warm home, I have a full stomach from lunch, and I’m about to eat some ice cream for the second half of class - a place where I can meet virtually in my comfy pants, toward a goal that I feel is my actual life purpose - and I have real gratitude toward my blessings.

I share this because when I find myself frustrated or mad at something that seemingly happens “to” me, I quickly head down a path of negativity, and then fear, and then panic - and then I begin questioning everything in life. This. is. scary. What then happens is the spiral of self doubt takes over and I can’t see or hear clearly. I see this every day around me especially in the people I serve that are feeling stuck, and I’m not here to fix it but to help you step through it to the other side. This is not a snap-your-fingers type of exercise.

The good news? I can literally stop it in its tracks by looking around me and taking a moment of gratitude for where I am, and I say very adamantly - I am ok. I observe, I ask myself questions - I give space, and grace.

There isn’t a one size fits all for the answer to churn, swirl, panic, tailspin, but, take a very intentional moment to find the root of it - it is within you already, not outside. If you only focus on what’s outside of you, you will always feel the churn.

Honor your feelings, feel the moment of panic or fear - and then provide the space for yourself, no matter what to see where it’s coming from and why. If you need help, that’s why I’m here but identifying it first and wishing to take action on it is the first step.

I see my lady pains, I honor that my body is expressing its natural function, and I will respond by eating a shit ton of ice cream and candy.